Counting the days...

Alhamdullillah - I've now reached my 34th week..At this point, I sometime feel quite heavy, tight (in the abdomen area) and very tired -- especially at the end of the day... Somehow I still did not gain any weight. I still weigh 81kg -- last check up on Monday..

Prof Zainul had discussed with me on delivery options. Still discussing and deciding -- particularly about where I'm going to give birth.. Nampak gayanya masih berat nak bersalin di Penang.. so we shall see..

Please pray and doa for me and my baby.. Thank you...

Atas permintaan some of my cousins who have not met me since I was pregnant, here are some pictures.. I think it still doesn't make any difference.. I nampak macam biasa saja I rasa...

This is during my sixth month pregnancy -- with a Nepalese secondee before he left for Kathmandu.. The lady in white is my colleague Letchumi...

This was taken last week..

Another angle... version kembang sikit..

Nobody, nobody but you....

I don't know why but this song keep playing in my head for the last couple of weeks even when I'm trying to sleep.. Melampau kan...Maybe because I keep looking it up on the youtube and playing it for at least once a day..Anyway, it does help to 'pick-me-up' when I'm feeling kind of sluggish nowadays -- reaching 32 weeks next weeks, and getting heavier and heavier (eventhough my weight still remain the same..mmmm...weird a..).. At the same time, hubby enjoyS it too -- so when it goes on air on Era every morning on the way to work.. It really make our day..

The girls are really cute and adorable, the steps are really contagious...

Enjoy the clip and the lyrics below...



Wonder Girls — Nobody (English) lyrics
You Know I still Love You Baby.
And it will never change. (Saranghae)

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to, to make me leave ya
I know what you're thinking
Baby why aren't you listening
How can I just
Just love someone else and
Forget you completely
When I know you still love me

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know it's not right so
Just stop and come back boy
How can this be
When we were meant to be

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you that I need and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do

Telling me you're not good enough
My life with you is just too tough
You know me enough so
You know what I need boy
Right next to you is where I need to be.

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want no body, body
I don't want no body, body

Honey you know it's you that I want, it's you that I need
Why can't you see~

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody nobody But You, I want nobody nobody But You
How can I be with another, I don't want any other
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Back to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Nothing else matters other than you and me
So tell me why can't it be
Please let me live my life my way
Why do you push me away
I don't want nobody nobody nobody nobody but you.

Diaper Cakes Giveaway Contest!!!

My dear cousin sister - Siti Nurbaizurah had started her own home-based business -- providing creative ways to give presents to newborn babies or younger children...aside from other things..

I really like her business idea and would like to help her promote her business.. Currently she's having a giveaway contest on her business blog -- sayangnya -- adik-beradik tak boleh join.
Note to Yah -- nanti buat giveaway contest just for adik-beradik no! -hehehehe...

Please do go and visit her blog - click on the banner below..


Below are some samples of her 'scrumptious ' looking cakes...

Update -- 5th check up...

Last Monday was my fifth monthly check up -- by now I'm in my 24th weeks.. Alhamdullilah everything is so far, so good.. Baby slightly bigger than the normal size.. Prof kata it should be around 750gm but mine is about 883gm..

Alhamdullillah also, my blood pressure dah semakin turun so now Prof suruh totally stopped my BP medication. Aspirin (in very small dosage) however I still have to continue sampai deliver rasanya.. Kedudukan plasenta pun ok, content of amniotic fluid pun ok -- he was worried takut terbanyak --- then that would indicate diabetic..

Sebenarnya being pregnant when you are overweight -- is really very risky. You are exposed/prone to get a lot of things.. On top of that, I'm not young anymore...hehehee...lagi la risky.. Tapi alhamdullillah, I'm controlling my food.. I drink a lot (I mean a lot -- at least 2 liters) of water -- and stay away from sweet stuff..

Next check up -- he wants to give me a jab for 'kancing gigi' -- which is actually meant for the baby but he's giving it through me..

Unfortunately last week -- I had a very, very bad case of food poisoning -- I've been having diarrhea and vomiting every day for the last 5-6 days.. I lost 2 kg within 4 days -- habis drain out all the water -- luckily I kuat minum air so at least I'm hydrated so tak payah la masuk drips.. Nasib baik.. Alhamdullillah now dah ok sikit, but I still cannot take milk -- ada kengkawan yang suggest suruh switch to soya bean -- tapi susah nak cari soya bean yang belum pre-mix with air gula.. I kalau boleh nak beli yang ada sikit je air gula -- just untuk ada taste sikit je.. yg manis2 tak nak.. Kalau ada yang tau kat mana nak beli, let me know ye -- kalau boleh yang orang Melayu buatla, lalu sikit nak minum...hehehe..

Prof was also surprised to see that my legs are not swollen -- means no water retention.. Probably because I minum banyak air..But on the flip side, my right arm & wrists are in constant numb/pain -- it's called carpal tunnel syndrome -- nothing much can be done about it -- so sometimes I have to bandage the wrist to minimise movements.

That's it for this month... please continue to pray for me and my baby.. Thank you so much...

On a different note, Mama, Abah, Cha and Wan Chik bertolak ke Madinah on the same Monday for umrah until 21st February. Harap-harap semuanya selamat...

Finally...after almost nine years...

This 13th January will be our ninth wedding anniversary.. However, for this year it's going to be a vast difference from the other years because finally for this anniversary -- I'm finally pregnant (alhamdullillah.. syukur pada Allah S.W.T yang masih mendengar doa dan permintaan daripada hamba2Nya yang kerdil dan hina ini)

I'm currently approaching my 20th week and alhamdullillah the baby is growing healthily..

After being just the two of us for so long, it feels quite surreal to us to comprehend what's coming.. Also, after all the hospital trips, treatments, hours of waiting, money spent.. aside from all the sindiran dan kutukan yang terngiang di telinga ni... Bersyukurnya both of us dengan kurniaan Allah yang satu ini...

Just for information, in 2005 I was pregnant once and I had a miscarriage when I reached my 10th week.. It was a very sad time for us and since then -- nothing.. We started to go for check ups in HUKM and after numerous treatments, just before we went with medically assisted conception (which at that point was IUI), we kind of stepped back from it.. sebab basically dah letih -- tak berenti-renti for more than a couple of years, a little bit patah semangat..We had accepted the fate that maybe we are not destined to have any children of our own...Tapi dengan kuasa Allah siapa yang sangka...

This post bukanlah bertujuan untuk bermegah-megah dengan berita gembira ini, tapi lebih kepada

1. Ucapan terima kasih yang tak terhingga kepada yang sudi mendoakan kami untuk dapat mengecapi nikmat Allah yang satu ini..

2. Harapan semoga kalian terus berdoa semoga anak dalam kandungan sihat sejahtera dan akan selamat dilahirkan ke dunia ini...

3. Memberi harapan kepada pasangan2 yang senasib dengan kami... jangan la berputus harap..Teruslah berdoa, semoga Allah kabulkan permintaan kalian...Amin...

Note to Adi: Happy 4th Birthday dear... Semoga Allah sentiasa memberi rahmatnya pada Adi...

Wedding of the year.. for our family.. part 3 (last part)

Sebelum tahun ni masuk ke tahun 2010, I better finish this entry secepat mungkin.. But sebelum tu, I would like to wish sesiapa yang sempat lalu kat my blog ni, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha..

Back to the kenduri -- on Wednesday petang tu (27th May), the butik pengantin people came and pasang the pelamin kat hall.. While they were hanging the stuff, I looked at the center piece and literally cringe...Dalam hati, adoi mak.. teruknya colour and design -- flowers semua nampak cheap and kusam.. abih la Yone mesti tak suka punye ni..Tak berani nak kata apa2 kat Mama dulu, because she went and proceed with this butik..Tengok2 Mama pun tak berkenan..


Yang sejambak bunga atas flower stand tu bukan from the butik ye.. it's the bunga pahar that I created..


Initially, the purple square thing, they just hang it as a square -- Mama yg mintak suruh dia gantung macam diamond gini...While they were hanging, Yone came back from work and saw the whole thing. Tak cakap apa, terus naik atas, terus migrane/demam..

Malam tu, while we were looking and thinking about the pelamin, mama decided to let me revamp the pelamin. Kesian kat Yone, mama kata..Luckily esoknya tu, baru Thursday -- so I have the whole day tomorrow to rectify the pelamin..

Bila tido malam tu, asyik dok pikir fesyen apa la nak buat pelamin Yone ni..Pagi esoknya, bangun2 je, terus browse internet for some ideas, print a couple of samples and lepas breakfast terus ajak Cha pegi SSF to look for the decorations.. After pegi SSF, went to the hardware shop next door, look for the stapler gajah yang sangat diperlukan untuk kerja2 membuat pelamin ini..hehehe..

By 1pm we cross over back to the island (as SSF is in seberang).. and head straight to KBJ.. First stop butik Aunty Jay -- Aunty J is our designated tailor for the wedding dresses (the pengantin as well as the adik-beradik).. Mama called her in the morning to see whether she can loan some of her flowers and apa barang2 yg boleh.. We took as many flowers as possible, then we head to Kamdar to look for the materials yang matching color schemenya dengan the theme colour.. Finally we found the best 2 colours and they are quite cheap -- dalam lingkungan bawah RM5, satu meter. Bought so many meters of cloth -- tak ingat dah berapa -- but all in all cost materials + stuff kat SSF saja dah dekat RM300.00 - okla, considering..

Sampai kat rumah by 3.00pm, makan lunch, solat, rehat sat - at 4pm we started working on the pelamin. Azim was around so asked him to help take the hideous thing out and put it outside while we work. He keep on saying that we should have told the butik to come and rectify it, I dah tak larat nak cari gaduh.. just kept quiet and start planning with Cha and Intan.. Buat punya buat until finally pukul 1 pagi baru la siap.. Lama betoi -- almaklumla, bukannya professional.. Tukang gantung pun ada sorang -- tu pun gilir gilir dengan cik kembaq.. By the time hubby arrived at the house for the wedding, pelamin tu pun siap untuk digunakan keesokan harinya..


Cantik tak pelamin?



The next morning - Yone was so happy to have the revamp pelamin looking like what she wanted... Adoi, berbaloi la kerja Yong, Cha, Intan and others.. I had to wake up early to solat Subuh and start on the tangga punya decorations plak.. Sempat siap, tapi tak sempat tangkap gambar (Cha, you have some rite, dalam your phone -- email la kat yong).. Anyway, around 8.30 dengan groggynya, had to drive and pick up the Marhaban group from Taman Tun S**d*n to our house.. Masa depa dok mengaji, I have to say, I cannot hold up my head anymore -- terus crash.. Letih oo... Satgi petang dah akad nikah.. Here are some pictures from that event...

In the evening - the akad nikah went well... after the akad was done in Masjid Negeri P. P.. the whole group head back to our home in I*l**d G**d*s and everyone had dinner.. By 9.00pm, Meor had gotten ready to head to T*b**g H*j* to start preparing for tomorrow's event. I was too tired to go that early so opt to help out at home and plan to go later..While we were at home, Cha did a video call with Ayu who was already at the hall to ask how was the decoration.. Ayu said it's not great plus it was quite dark by then for Ayu to show how they did it via the phone.. So, again at around 10.30/11pm, Cha, I and hubby drove to the hall to check out the decorations -- the butik people had already left..Again, the colour was totally off -- everything was too bright -- they used a lot of bright pink instead of pastel pink & purple.. adoi another pening kepala.. by then it's already midnight and most of us pun dah tak larat dah nak buat apa2.. so we went back and crashed. Early on Saturday morning at around 7.30am -- I make the call to the boutique owner and ask them to rectify the decorations according to my request. I told her to make sure everything is done by 11.00am. She promised to do so and that's a bulk load off my shoulders.. By 8.30am both of us - hubby and I plus Yone had to pick up the groom from the hotel and drop them at the saloon to get ready. Then we went and pick up the photographers and bring them to the hall.. Sampai je kat the hall -- terus salin baju and bersiap.. My lovely brooch that I just bought online broke and tak dapat la nak melaram sakan masa tu..

Just before 12.00noon, Yone called to say they were ready and wanted us to come and pick them up.. By 12.20 macam tu, the bride and groom were already in the waiting room.. then the reception began.. Enjoy the pictures...

**For reference: the theme colour was - the married couples -purple, single ladies/girls -pink and the single men - green..

Bali trip..

I had so much of story to tell, but don't know where to start..

I guess during Ramadan ni, masa lebih banyak tertumpu kepada kerja, rushing balik ke rumah to beat the jam, then masak (or beli je kat Bazar Ramadan).. make sure all set for iftar.. Lepas iftar, fokus plak on ibadah (yang selalunya asyik ketinggalan -- berazam to ensure this part will increase this year -- alhamdullillah so far so good).. then terus tido --sebab by 4.00am dah nak bangun plak for sahur..That's it for my ramadan routine..However, the merdeka weekend I was very excited coz dapat balik Penang berbuka puasa with all my family members - immediate and extended.. Lepas the kenduri Yone a couple of months back (which reminds me, I still have 1 last entry abt that), was very glad to see all of them -- especially the small ones (Adi and Irfan -- wish Emran was there too, but I guess that will happen during raya ja kot).. dapat suprise birthday party lagi -- hehehe.. thank you to all my siblings, parents and my beloved husband (terlibat ke idak ni??)

Anyway -- back to my original story plan -- I was in Bali a couple of weeks back for the 9th ICAAP -- the flight was ok -- on time and we got to the hotel fine. However, the hotel we stayed in Nusa Dua was really, really horrible - the bath tub was moldy - the bathroom was dingy.. The ceiling was moldy and had water stains (don't think it was due to rain because there's another couple of floors above me) -- there was only 1 power socket which was used by the TV (small 14 inch TV) and there were a couple of times, I saw this 'ulat' - I used to call it 'Separ Bulan' mengulit mimpi di dalam toilet as well as in front of the closet.. eeeewwww..

It seems Letchumi had a lousy room too - so it's not just me.. Francyne who had to stay one night earlier at the same hotel pun complaint that it wasn't great (mind you, she got to stay in one of the presidential suite!! The hotel misplaced her reservation, so they upgrade her at the same price).. It's so not worth it for USD85.00 (this is conference rate kalau tidak it's more than USD100.00) per night.. Tapi memandangkan easy commute to the Convention Centre -- we make do je la..

Petang the first day tu, we had to attend the opening ceremony -- I didn't realise that it's going to be so windy and chilly at night so tak prepare with any thicker clothes. Also, asap rokok dengan merdekanya berterbangan di sekeliling ku menyebabkan tonsilku mula terasa bengkak.. Jenuh la dok pop-in the 'F**h*r**n F*i**d -- to make the sore throat go away.. The O.C. was good, tapi the speeches were quite long, orang semua dah lapar..And by the time the OC is over -- the food stations dah penuh dikerumuni ramai orang -- so we took the bus to get back to the hotel. We had our dinner at the hotel's restaurant je that night.

Overall the whole conference was good. The participants got what they want. Most of the participants are first timers in reporting on HIV/AIDS -- we had to spent quite a while to make sure they understand the sensitivity of reporting on HIV/AIDS. Alhamdullillah -- they all look quite excited about learning something new...

Also, this is the first time ever in my experience of handling these types of workshop the majority of the participants are women -- almost 90% -- only 2 guys (but 1 dropped out last minute - so last2 tinggal sorang)..

I also managed to finally meet Kak Pi of Pi's Twist during one of the interviews. The efforts and commitments of the NGO and the people running the NGO such as Buddies of Ipoh really deserve the highest salute from the community. Sungguh mulia hati mereka ini semua...

Kak Pi being interviewed by Shaza..

The troop from Buddies and ABU

By this time, I was quite sick -- nasib baik ada clinic kat the conference, went there quickly to get the medication before my fever escalates. Nanti tak boleh balik plak..kena kuarantine..

We were checked out from the hotel on the 11th and proceed to Kuta for our own time -- the hotel there (eventhough 3 star) was so much better.. we really love the room there..We did some shopping and spa the next day and by night time, boarded our plane back to KL..

cantik kan.. lupa plak nak amik gambar 'horror' kat the previous hotel..

Muka tak berapa sihat tapi tetap pegi shopping.. hehehe.. kat Erlangga..

It was a good trip...